Music was your real passion this thing you held dear even above family. It was this relationship that never betrayed you. Once it became your job - this thing that was highly visible this thing that became about commerce - that's when you were holding onto music like it was a palm tree in a hurricane.
I think it would be cool if you were writing a ransom note on your computer if the paper clip popped up and said 'Looks like you're writing a ransom note. Need help? You should use more forceful language you'll get more money.'