So what I do now is to pre-empt that by making the up into a virtue and telling funny stories about how crap I am before people have a chance to notice it for themselves and think maybe I haven't realised.
Whether you like it or not you're forced to come to the realisation that death is out there. But I don't fear death I'm a fatalist. I believe when it's your time that's it. It's the hand you're dealt.
