I've worked so hard to eliminate the inner geek from my life. I suddenly realize I have no patience for those people who still have their geeks showing. Now I see why being 'normal' has been so important to me.
Death is with you all the time you get deeper in it as you move towards it but it's not unfamiliar to you. It's always been there so what becomes unfamiliar to you when you pass away from the moment is really life.