I've never wanted anybody to like me because I had long hair or short hair or that they liked the way I dressed or they liked the way I dressed or they liked the way I smile.
I realised how paranoid and guarded and not trusting - walled-in - I had become. Not consciously so but just this armour that I kind of have protective armour. It's not for my friends or family but for being.outside in the world always on guard.
