If in my youth I had realized that the sustaining splendour of beauty of with which I was in love would one day flood back into my heart there to ignite a flame that would torture me without end how gladly would I have put out the light in my eyes.
People under the influence of cults is similar to that we observe in addicts. Typical behaviour for both includes draining bank accounts neglecting children destroying relations with family and losing interest in anything except the drug or cult.
