I like everything perfect. Everything has to be neat. My sister is 5 and she's more messy than I am. I make my bed every morning everything's perfect. My shoes are all arranged. It's sad. I'm a little like Ray a little bit.
You have the freedom to live and let live to love and let love. Granting yourself that freedom is one of the healthiest most constructive things you can do for yourself and the people who matter to you.