Here's my rule: You always want to pay cash for your own books because if they look at the name on the credit card and then they look at the name on the book jacket then there's this look of such profound sympathy for you that you had to resort to this. It really is withering.
Your dear baby has died innocent and blameless and has been called away by an all wise and merciful Creator most probably from a life to misery and misfortune and most certainly to one of happiness and bliss.