Music videos are notoriously long not fun grueling. You are known there as a dancer and it's kind of sad because dancers in a lot of ways are under-appreciated and kind of under-respected when it come to that so they don't necessarily treat you in a nice way when you do a music video.
I know to banish anger altogether from one's breast is a difficult task. It cannot be achieved through pure personal effort. It can be done only by God's grace.