I think about death a lot like I think we all do. I don't think of suicide as an option but as fun. It's an interesting idea that you can control how you go. It's this thing that's looming and you can control it.
As the biggest library if it is in disorder is not as useful as a small but well-arranged one so you may accumulate a vast amount of knowledge but it will be of far less value than a much smaller amount if you have not thought it over for yourself.