The ideal death I think is what was the ideal Victorian death you know with your grandchildren around you a bit of sobbing. And you say goodbye to your loved ones making certain that one of them has been left behind to look after the shop.
When we ask for love we don't ask others to be fair to us-but rather to care for us to be considerate of us. There is a world of difference here between demanding justice... and begging or pleading for love.