You always do what you want to do. This is true with every act. You may say that you had to do something or that you were forced to but actually whatever you do you do by choice. Only you have the power to choose for yourself.
I think art is the only thing that's spiritual in the world. And I refuse to forced to believe in other people's interpretations of God. I don't think anybody should be. No one person can own the copyright to what God means.