I suffered from post-natal depression after Rowan was born. I had a healthy beautiful baby girl and I couldn't look at her. I couldn't hold her smile at her. All I wanted was to disappear and die.
The thing I care about is my weight - I'm as fanatical about it as a member of Girls Aloud. I weigh myself every morning. I know exactly what I want to be - 82kg - and I try to stick to it.
