I was interested in transcendence from a very early age. I was interested in what was over there what was behind life. So when I had my first communion I was very disappointed. I had expected something amazing and surprising and spiritual. Instead all I got was a bicycle. That wasn't what I was after at all.
I don't know what I would have done without believing in God. His support gives me power and energy to continue to be optimistic to smile not to be depressed. Sometimes if things are not going so well I don't cry. I say maybe it's meant to be.