I'm terrified of bugs and I travel with sprays lotions potions the lot. I have to check the room before I go to sleep and if I come across a bug and fail to remove it I have to sleep in a separate room as I'm paranoid that I'll be taken advantage of as I sleep.
To be completely woman you need a master and in him a compass for your life. You need a man you can look up to and respect. If you dethrone him it's no wonder that you are discontented and discontented women are not loved for long.
