I do not want to admit to the world that I can be a bad person. It is just that I don't want anyone to have false expectations. Moviemaking is a harsh volatile business and unless you can be ruthless too there's a good chance that you are going to disappear off the scene pretty quickly.
But on the other hand I get bored with racism too and recognize that there are still many things to be said about a Black person and a White person loving each other in a racist society.