Deep down no one really believes they have a right to live. But this death sentence generally stays tucked away hidden beneath the difficulty of living. If that difficulty is removed from time to time death is suddenly there unintelligibly.
If I stayed a football player my career would have been over 20 years ago. As it is my knees are shot. I found I got the same good feeling in acting that I had in sports but I found I could have a more profound impact on people.