I realised how paranoid and guarded and not trusting - walled-in - I had become. Not consciously so but just this armour that I kind of have protective armour. It's not for my friends or family but for being.outside in the world always on guard.
When you look at other countries that are developing the capabilities and the technology to deploy missiles of very significant destructive capability with nuclear chemical or biological warheads then the MAD dogma makes even less sense.
