To this day I've found that it doesn't matter what a guy looks like if he's really funny. His sense of humor makes him attractive. On the other hand you don't hear men saying 'No she's not pretty but is she ever funny!'
I saw myself as an outsider as a teen. I was home-schooled and got my G.E.D. when I was 16 I wasn't interested in high school at all and figured that college might be more entertaining.