At the end of the day sleep is a barometer of your emotional health. And so if you're not in the right place where you need to be then you're going to have voices keeping you up at night because you have to work through those issues.
Not that I regret saying what I believed to be the truth but I regret anything that I might have written or spoken that could have been used in a way to help to foster that atmosphere out of which came the loss of life of Brother Malcolm.