If I could be more vague I'd write more about people in my life but I hate hurting feelings or making people feel uncomfortable. I've done that before. Unless they're sad songs. Those get finished fast but the mean ones often end up at the back of the bottom drawer and it's probably for the best.
In my business if I get too close to you and you die it hurts me. And so you develop a natural inclination not to be close to the patient so that if things don't work out ideally you can still get up the next day and care for the next patient.