That's the hard part about sport: as men we haven't started to be in our prime but as athletes we are old people. I needed support. I lost trust and did stupid things.
Sexiness particularly in movies is the chess game in the 'Thomas Crown Affair'. It's it's I don't know but Faye Dunaway comes up a lot in that thinking. It's the subtlety of sexiness. The moment you try to be sexy then it's not.