Life isn't meant to be easy. It's hard to take being on the top - or on the bottom. I guess I'm something of a fatalist. You have to have a sense of history I think to survive some of these things... Life is one crisis after another.

Instead of joyfully looking forward to my birth my mother began systematically preparing for her own death. She was fatalistic.

Whether you like it or not you're forced to come to the realisation that death is out there. But I don't fear death I'm a fatalist. I believe when it's your time that's it. It's the hand you're dealt.