Perhaps it's good for one to suffer. Can an artist do anything if he's happy? Would he ever want to do anything? What is art after all but a protest against the horrible inclemency of life?
It is a sore point because you do have advantages if you have access to more than one language. You also have problems because on bad days you don't trust yourself either in your first or your second language and so you feel like a complete halfwit.
